I also remember that was the time when I was full of euphoria mixed with feelings of uneasiness. The fool who said love is eternal should have been hanged by the toes on his legs. If by eternal, he meant burning forever in heated oil, then maybe he is true. Coz sometimes I feel this feeling of total queasiness is akin to jumping into a frying pan filled with hot and burning cooking oil. All these emotions went through my head in a matter of two minutes as I threw away the sheets from me and I vacated the cozy bed.
“I’ll be ready in a jiffy, Sucha.” I muttered and walked out into the shower. I knew she hated this name. But what the hell, I was not in the best of my moods. Before I could lock the door I had a glimpse of the needle pointed stare from her cold eyes strike through me. “Oh God, there’s still more to come by the end of today”, I grimaced.
Lunch at Michael and Jedi’s went really good. Michael and I agreed on most things. So as sure as calm follows the storm, the lunch went great. AS usual Sucharita and Jedi had a lot to talk about, which I was sure will be about me and my recent mood swings. Michael and I had a couple of beers after lunch and talked about all and everything under the sun. One of thing of prominent note that I have to mention, Jedi did give me the cold eye when atlast we left their CHARMING house.
The drive back was filled with uncommonly silence which suited me really well. I could see that she was just bursting to talk but was maintaining the silence so that she is not the first one to break it. As I said earlier the wicked streak in me found it really funny. So I kept mum – until we reached home, of course.
I have to tell you how everything started. As I told you earlier we had a good thing going between us. And you will have to remember that this is no justification on my part. We were both responsible for the drift. It all started with the small things. On retrospection, it is always the small things in life that cost us more pain, misery and even happiness. The big problems a human mind can live with and fight. But the culmination of small irritations and naggings can really tear a world apart. So it was, with us too.
Yes, she is my wife, but I sure would have loved a little more privacy. Sometimes a person needs time spent alone, maybe catching up on reading or maybe just sit on the porch and look at the world around you. How would you feel, when you are sitting all alone by yourself and somebody comes and wants to talk about things that can wait for another hour? That’s exactly what happened, not once but inuumerable times. I tried telling her that all I needed was half an hour of relaxing and thinking about nothing in particular ( over the years I had learnt that this was the best way to relax – think of anything and nothing in particular and forget everything around you). But somehow I was never left in peace. When I asked her why she said why I needed to sit alone when she was there to share everything with me. That was a good question that almost stumped me. I had to point out the numerous times when I had left her alone when she was in a pensive mood. “That’s different”, she said. I was blank for a few moments. So many such incidents can get into any one’s nerve, surely? I have given only one incident here. Believe me, there were more which I don’t want to go in detail right now. Maybe some other day.