I am not sure if every human being who have lived, who are living and will live on earth would have or would have had the same feeling as I have right now. It has been almost five years now since I have reconciled to the fact, to my way of thinking. I was in one of many far away lands I have since known, in my minds eye. I was walking through a desolate land over the sands of time. But the memories were both clear and muddy at the same time and they were all around me. It was like I was walking in a land both real and unreal, the in-between world of present, past and future. Even though I could see a myriad of colors and my past unfolding all around me, I could feel how desolate the place really was. It was a feeling in my bones, so deep inside me. The fear was an underlying touch of uneasiness.
The rational part of my mind never wanted to be so afraid or filled with this helpless longing/hate (or is it only the raving mad thoughts that run in and out of my mind). But I am sure anyone who has gone many a time hunting answers into the internal depths in one’s mind will know that it isn’t the complete truth. The universal truth that escapes most people’s minds is that rationality is relative. What we say normal behaviour in any individual encompasses so many complex sequences of thoughts and actions that true rationality is missed out. I know I had passed caring if I was rational or just irrational. It was a moot point, to use a much misused cliché.
After a grueling day at the working on the fields one would expect total rest of body and mind. But hell no, I was not ever meant to be relaxed. No siree never. When the body pains and when you want to lie down to give it a rest, the pain in the head starts. First I never even knew what was happening to me. The first time I thought it was just a headache after standing under the sun for so long. Well things have changed and my perspective has changed too.
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